I turned off the lights, laid down, dug my face deep in the pillow, pulled my favorite cozy blanket over top of me, and snuggled down, deep down into my warm and cozy bed.
You might think that it was time for bed, but it wasn’t. In fact, it was about an hour ago, in the middle of the day…
Why I’m So Happy All The Time
My favorite times in my life are the ones in which I am completely alone. Just me and my thoughts. I love my family with all my heart. My friends are very important to me, but nothing will ever replace those times when I get to spend just me and the Lord.
Thinking, talking to Him, praying. Just me and Him, no distractions, no noise, just silence.
As I lay there in silence all snuggled up, I can’t help but think how blessed I am. I’m OVERWHELMED by happiness. In my life, I’ve never been happier! Yes, I’m a single mom. Yes, I do not, by any means have an easy life, but I love my life. I love all the people I know. My friends, my family, YOU.
It’s easy for you to look at my life and think to yourself, “Wow, of course she’s happy. She’s got everything.” But, I want to share a secret with you. Something that only my friends know.
Even WHEN I was going through all the horrible things in my life, I. was. STILL. happy!
Although I truly can find joy and comfort in my life now, all the things I have, all the people I know, I have always found joy in my life. Even amidst the deepest depression bouts. I know what I have is special. It’s unique. It’s not for everyone…it’s Christ.
He doesn’t save everyone. Some, He fully allows them to make dumb decisions and end up in Hell. After years and years of praying for my ex-husband, to this day, he remains in the truest sense of the word…an apostate. He has fully seen God in me for many years, fully seen God in many others and still walked away asking me to give up God or he would abandon our family. Unless God decides to intervene, he will spend the rest of eternity, by his own choice, in Hell.
And there are others…..many, many others.
You see, salvation isn’t for most people. In fact, the Bible says there are FEW that find the way. Few is not the majority. Few is…well, a few.
While the world is full of wolves in sheep’s clothing, one day, God will unmask every single soul. He will reveal to all whether we are His true saints…or wolves.
Here on Earth, sometimes, it’s hard to tell the wolves from the sheep. On the outside, sometimes they look the same. Maybe they even go to the same church, but the Bible is clear, the tares grow among the wheat. The wolves with the sheep.
That is what makes me so happy. That I know, without a shadow of a doubt, 100% fully and utterly convinced that I am truly a saint.
No matter what the world throws at me here in this life, it is in God’s hand in Whom I rest. In Whom I find my comfort. In Him I find my strength. Every day I wake up knowing that if something happened to me, I’d be better off!! I’d be right there in Heaven, looking on God’s amazingly gorgeous face and praising Him for all eternity.
This life is hard. Man, I tell you, it’s rough!
But, in any minute and only according to His sovereign will, I will be far better off, and anything I have to endure in this life to gain the next, is worth it. I’m not saying you can gain your salvation by works, that is heresy. But that the life of a believer is more often HARDER than the life of someone not saved, for we are swimming upstream, against the current, against the world system.
Where do you get your happiness from? Where do you get your joy? On Who’s name do you claim victory over death?
My life-verse is written by Paul:
“For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body.”
~Philippians 1:21-24
I’d much rather be with Christ, but I’m torn, because I also want to be here for you. The reason that God keeps me here, His will for my life is YOU. To encourage you, to comfort you, to love you from afar, to inspire you, to motivate you, to teach you all the good things that He intends for Christians to know. And it is my HONOR to serve you. It truly is. If you follow my blog, thank you! Thank you for helping me be the woman who God has created me to be, a servant.
Do you have bad days? Me too! But, even in the saddest and worst of days, we, as Christians can still have joy!
